THE LIVES OF LUCY AND LUKAS
Lyrics by Alec Davis
(Except for ‘Fourteen’: lyrics by Nick Hancill, butchered by Alec Davis)
Year One – Lucy
LUCY
Lost words
Thirty candles staring at me, but I’m right where I want to be
Career on track, though there’s some things that I lack
Apparently they were chosen by the majority
My screw ups are no longer mine
I don’t have the time to wait in line and abide by your design
It’s not the design for me
Thirty candles staring at me, are you really where you want to be?
Looking back, can you admit what you lack?
Too scared to look back?
Drop this ‘living for today’ nonsense, I’m doing fine
Without your charity pretence, a rise at my expense
It’s a shame that you all claim, that you like what you became
Your inspired selves from the past, you made sure they finished last
Though I watch from afar
Your traditions, your trends, anniversaries
The way your lives intertwine
One day it’s something I hope to find
But it won’t be a priority
I’ll make it a footnote, secondary
Looking back, I’ll admit
It’s something that I lack
Wasted, worthless, words that taint the air I breathe
If I can just make a dent in history to remember me
A line in a book, a notch on the wall, I’ll die happy having nothing at all
To have my name spoken aloud, by people I don’t know, people I’ll never know
Then I can die, satisfied, clinging to nothing
Year Two – Lukas
LUKAS
‘Anything’
A word I cannot attach to me in any way
Unless it’s ‘cannot do’ or ‘do not know’
My accomplishments – the sum of unfinished work and lies
A box of tricks, too many ticks, that got me there
Anything
That is what lies in front of me with anyone
But I can’t decide on what I want
I’m wondering, about why I am stuck still wandering
Through every day, every year, when nothing’s clear
I wait, for things to fall in place
Or I wait, for things to fall
Maybe I’ve reached the end now
Maybe I’m stretched too thin
Maybe I’ll take, take, take
Maybe I’ll stand on my own
Finally
Maybe I’ll knuckle down now
Maybe I’ll act my age
Maybe I’ll sweat, sweat, sweat
Maybe I’ll persevere
‘Anything’
A word I will not attach to me in any way
Unless it’s ‘will not do’ or ‘will not learn’
My experience – I caught the original 151
I haven’t a clue, what it is lose, but it’s time I knew
I wait for (with my eyes closed)
I pray for (my pride exposed)
A miracle (my head bowed low to make me a hypocrite)
Though I’m certain (my mind was closed)
It’s not what (pride unopposed)
I deserve (what do I deserve?)
Year Three – Lethal Weapon Is A Christmas Film Too
LUKAS
She wore a black dress, she was chasing a speyside
Her jaded green eyes were watching the bar TV
And then her face lit up when the credits rolled for Lethal Weapon
“But,” I said, “why watch this when Die Hard’s starting in ten on channel three?”
“Back off! What the hell do you know? McClane wouldn’t stand a chance against these two.”
“Shall we go on three?”
LUCY
“Is that the twelve year?” he said
“I like its bite but I’d rather something light.”
“Just like your taste in classic films,” I said
“McClane’s just a cop when Riggs is special forces with specialist training it’s barely a contest.”
He pulled up a stool and gave me his name, “Lukas.”
“I didn’t ask.”
Did I want to be alone? “Lucy.”
But I never could resist a debate
Especially when it’s not about who the hell Rey’s Dad is, Marvel or Halo
Or any vampire or werewolf franchise
I’m sick of it all, it’s done to death
Then he said, “McClane cleared a building of bad guys
Without a partner, without a police force
He dived from the roof when it was exploding
How can you compare?!”
Read right through
Read into the words I shoot at you
Year Four – I’m Not Another Brick In Your Wall
LUCY
I figured it out after many years
How to fix the source of many fears
To stop the chaos closing in
But before I start, I’ve a mountain to climb
To convince all those, at the end of the line
That we’re actually at risk
Please listen, please listen and learn, I beg you
There isn’t just one threat
I’m bashing my head against the wall of ignorance they hide behind
Building themselves a new world
A world free from challenges, accountability
While the rest of us clean up the shit left behind
You’re welcome
No matter how many times I explain it all
No matter how many times their arguments fall
I can’t, find a way to win
I bury them under all the facts
But because of their pride they float on their backs
Why can’t, I just make them drown?
If minds don’t change
Blind eyes don’t change, what then?
Admit defeat and move to an island?
One small enough that no one knows we’re screwed
Then indulge in some ignorance of our own
Their bashing my head against a wall of politics they hide behind
Stopping me saving the world
Instead we will watch it die, with beers in hand
Raise a toast to thank all the shits that screwed up
SHITS
You’re welcome
Year Five – Crash
LUKAS
I think you realise things aren’t rational
Take a good look back at what we’ve done
Like travelling for twenty miles to play an old arcade
Or skipping work to watch a show from start to finish
You hide it, like your love for jazz
You hide it (deny it)
But you know best
I know your tells and I’ve dodged your tales
Please swap that bottle for my ears
LUCY
Tonight under this bloody moon
My lungs inhale and never will again
The world refused to let me save it
Together we’ll bleed onwards from this night
Don’t find me, please don’t find me
Lukas, don’t find me
LUKAS
I’m keeping company with your shadow self
It’s been a year and now switch that light on
You’ve been running round to reduce your life to useless static
Then passing me the mixtapes of your erased secrets
You hide them, like your love for crafts
You hide them (I’ll find them)
But you know best
I know your tells and I’ve dodged your tales
Please swap your tape player for my ears
Their Sonata: Development
LUKAS
The flash of the lights, the drone of the wheels
They turn to a blur, disorientation
Bruised but not broken, I take in the scene
I call out your name, I call out your name, but you cannot answer
Calm and still
Empty and cold
Your eyes close
Now I’m alone
People all around
Now I’m alone
Fourteen
LUKAS
These stars have no regard for all the signs we know
I’ve drank in every bar I’ve stolen cars I own
And it’s been to long that I’ve seen myself with you
Savour me
Your books they always stood between us and you knew
Even though I tried to plead it’s just not what you do
And it’s been too long that I’ve seen myself with you
So what remains of myself now that Lucy’s gone
Acceptance
LUKAS
I can barely stand
Still the poison courses through my veins
It’s the only way I can face this
A week today
Since they cut her from this world
And from my world
She wore a black dress
I take a sip of my speyside picturing those green eyes
When they lower her body into the ground
Why’d you go on three?
Her family gathers
They’ve no idea who I am
You had so many secrets, Lucy
Her father asks me, “Why would anyone do this to our girl?”
You had so many secrets
How many times did you say you’ll have to save us all?
How many times did you hide equations on the wall
How many times did you fight to keep your goals alive I can’t recall
How many times did they kill to stop you all
Read right through
Read into the words she shot at you
Puzzle
LUKAS
Make her dent in history
This task I’ve assigned to me
To have her name spoken loud
They’ll scream it ’til their lungs give out
Like hers did that night, wasted, worthless
I need time to sift through, the debris of her life
The puzzle border was bounded to her name
Her legacy remained
Though not a hint of who to blame
The remaining shapes seem impossible to fit
I’m sure I have them all
Dammit, Lucy, is this all?
The hidden messages, forbidden practices
Is this all?
The hidden warehouses and technologies
Is this all?
This can’t be all
I made them talk through bloody teeth
To get to the truth beneath
Their broken bones, broken claims
Won’t ever see their world again
It’s burning, flames dancing, it’s too late
You can’t just walk away
Hold your breath, close your eyes
Surrender
The puzzle border was bounded to her name
Her legacy remained
And I now know just who to blame
The remaining shapes seem impossible to fit
I still don’t have them all
Dammit, Lucy, is this all?
I’m buried underneath this mess
I need your help I will confess
I always have I always will
I’ll drown from the weight of your bravery
Your drive and gall
How you’re weren’t afraid to fall
So many of them, only one of you
But you still got your notch in their wall
Even though I’ve found them all
You died with nothing at all
The puzzle border was bounded to her name
Her legacy remained
And I now know just who to blame
The remaining shapes now fall into their place
Now I have them all
Thank you, Lucy, this is all
The hidden messages, forbidden practices
Is this all? Yes this is all
The hidden warehouses and technologies
Is this all?
This is all
Their Sonata: End
LUKAS
Strap yourself in, this ride’s about to start
But don’t worry, I left a bomb under your seat
You interfere, control, control
But this ride you can’t
Just wait for the fall
Can you hear me lying? And smiling?
Are you watching my words?
Will you hear me dying?
You can’t be sure
Lucy caught your spying
So you silenced her words
Do you trust what I say?
You can’t be sure
From this hidden space, I defy, defy
Your greed and stubbornness
And your fear of change
From this machine
I spread across the world
To enable me, to finish Lucy’s dream
I wait for, I pray for a miracle
So I close my eyes
I’m certain it’s what she deserves
Although she’ll never know
I’ve reached the end
I’m stretched too thin
I’ll take, take, take
Stand on my own
I’ll knuckle down
I’ll act my age
I’ll sweat, sweat, sweat
Persevere
The machine comes to life
I feel its heat, its growing reach
I set its task, its first and last
To fix what’s left
A crash in the room
Shots from the darkness
Beat of my heart, erratic like madness
Enemy’s here
Commanded by fear I’m frozen
The noises drawn near, they’re somewhat metallic
Robotic, austere, devoid of all malice
Still I don’t move
These moments my last I won’t waste them
I look in their eyes, they open fire
The damage is great, they severed the wires
Remember the bomb?
I clutch the remote and focus
It’s the end of my life
The machine is now broken
Was it enough?
Did it set things in motion?
Finished we are
Was it worthwhile or just lost words?
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